random fact about amanda:
The first time I got sent to the principal’s office…dun dun dun. sometime in elementary school, grade unknown, probably 4th, i was outside playing kickball at recess. i remember kicking the ball ridiculously far, and i ran around the bases like i was insane (i totally was insane but shh). then, right before i touched my foot onto home, DAN BEAUBIEN (yeah bish i remember your name)...
i thought i was 100% completely over everything…”us”…whatever, but apparently i’m not if all my freestyle and verse pieces mysteriously end up being about you. well fuck you and your couch.
i keep forgetting elliott smith is dead…and then i remember, and my life sucks.
yelah: you kind of piss me off to the point where i don’t even want to interact with you anymore. fuck off. you make me want to throw up. what have you done?
wake & bake.
cookies! hahaha. but yeah, i smoked, too. don’t judge me. i’m not even hungry, i just got excited cause we have those nestle cookie things that you just put in the oven. kirby would be proud about how i’m talking about food in a tumblr post. haha. also listening to third eye blind, drinking iced coffee, and having an on & off staring contest with gidget. feelz g0od man.
my boobs are too big. they get in the way of everything. FUCK THOSE BITCHES. but they attract da LAYDEEEEZZZZ (and by that i mean dudez, cause i’m straight) so i guess i can’t complain. eye for an eye. lalala. i kind of just wanted to make a tumblr post about boobz. actually i’m sure this isn’t my first…hm.
lol@ my life.
i spent today thinking about my life. nothing too serious, just random unimportant things that have happened, y’know, stupid shit. i mentally went through my memories of the few years (05-08) where i literally LIVED at local shows. i realized that i started off going to these shows by myself (considering most of them were in freehold, and none of my friends in middletown shared the...
you left before i had a chance to say goodbye, but...
stupid. i almost texted you, telling you that regardless of the past and how we’re like strangers (eh, more like acquaintances) now, i’ll always consider you one of my best friends. always. i almost texted you. but i felt cheesy and lame. and i kind of just wanna pretend that our friendship isn’t as complicated as it so obviously is. blah. i’m trying. i really am.
i, the person who fails EPICALLY at relationships, apparently gives the best relationship advice. go. figure.
hotgaynerds: Harlem Shakes - Sunlight. ...
kazoozle party is going to be a vagina-fest. i just realized more girls are coming rather than guys. makes me lol.
five months ago today, my heart died along with my dad. it was actually around this time (7PM) that i found out. five months is a long time, yet not really if you think about it. i’m doing fine without a heart, to those who are wondering. the doctors lied, you really don’t need one.
i’m in a better mood now that i realized kazoozle party is two weeks from today :D
WHERE DID MY POST GO!?
fuck you tumblr! i posted a very mature revelation thang and it was up for like a minute now it’s gone. i hatechu. stop ruining my life. bring it back. hahaha fuck, i’m going to sleep. n1gthzzz*__ edit: it would be back as soon as i post this. you betchhh.
revelations? what? i usually don't have these.
for years, i’ve wrestled with my feelings for you. it went like this: i love you, i don’t love you, FUCK YOU, no wait…i love you, nah i never loved you, what’s love anyway?, i hate you, DIE, i love you, lovelovelove, hatehatehate… etc…repeat..blahblah. but today i kindof realized that my mind literally took all those feelings up there ^ and mixed them...
i just got home.
after a VERY exciting day, the night seemed pretty bleh and i found myself with no plans. i was like. fuck. and took a nap around 7. i woke up at like 10 (fack) and called nicky like i told her i was going to annnnd she was like i’m in colts neck. i was like. COOL. that’s so fucking far. haha. so i walked to quick stop, saw some peeps, annnnd now i’m home. i’m not trying...
okay, i’m not gonna lie, i smoke a lot of weed. the only people who smoke more than me are probably keith leming & snoop dogg, but i digress. i don’t see this as a holiday. i see it as tuesday, april 20th, and yes, i’m going to smoke weed. but um, i do this everyday, so it isn’t a big deal. oh, bfd, my facebook status says “merry christmas.” EXCUSE ME for...
i could really use a wish right now.
poplense: hotgaynerds: Damn it, Apollo! I love this video. <3333333333333 ahaha i giggled. so cute.
you want my thoughts on you?
well. I DON’T. GIVE. A FUCK.
maybe fate/life/whatever brings me all this bullshit on purpose just because it makes me write like a maniac. hm, something to ponder.
i will not lose another friend to drugs. i can’t. i mean, i guess i kind of already did within the past few days cause my close friends are going to jail for selling weed. it’s really not a big deal to me. like, it is cause i’ll miss them and it SUCKS, but i don’t think it makes them bad people. fuck you and your judgement, you don’t know them. anyway, what i’m...
color-me-happy: amanda →
is my other half. my lover. my wife. the only person that says the exact same thing as me at the same time. she knows how to make me laugh. and she’s extremely unihibited. i wish i had those cool contact lenses i learned about in mr. roesch’s class with amanda last year, so i could have recorded… k i lied on fb, i’m remembering everything because i’ve been creeping your...
vknglmbs: Younger Days →
I really wish my dad & I couldve written a song together. I’ve been listening to his CD all day. It’s hitting me in ways I never really thought it would. It’s an awkward feeling. One thing that always got me is there’s an unfinished lullaby he wrote for me when I was a baby. Unfinished…. we have a lot more in common than i thought, zach.
the feeling’s mutual, biiiiiiiiiitchhh. also, why is there an entire tbanks episode dedicated to periods? like, i’m a girl and even i don’t wanna fucking watch this. grossszszszzzsss. i’m so bored. waiting for gabby & nicky & my bffl mary jane to get here ;D fffffffuuuuuuuu-
it's the way it is.
my family lived in neptune until i was 3. once my brother was born, we moved to howell to get a bigger house. we lived there for 11 years. now i live in leonardo, and to be honest, i feel like i’ve lived here my whole life. in fact, i wish i lived here my whole life. i know that i would have missed out on making all the friends i still have in howell but..idk. leonardo is home to me. the...
Are you a dementor? Because you just took my...
fuckfuckfuck. i don’t have anyone to talk to about this, so i’m gonna rant to tumblr. i don’t wanna cancel kazoozle party. i, along with a lot of other people, have been looking forward to it for almost two months and counting. idk. i’m not gonna say “something came up” cause it isn’t anything new, just the same old BULLSHIT i’ve had to deal with for...